giovedì, 15 maggio 2008
il mio blog rappresenta in pieno la mia vita ora. Zero stimoli, zero voglia. Un "su e giù" di emozioni e treni.

A dirla tutta gli stimoli non sono zero, sono molti ma non ho il coraggio e gli strumenti per portarli a termine.

E' più che evidente che devo cambiare qualcosa e non è facile, non è per niente sicuro.

Non sono alle mauritius, mauritius....magari!!!

Sono sempre qui a lottare in mezzo a tutti questi omini grigi che mi attanagliano caviglie e pensieri per trascinarmi sempre più giù.

Resta presente, a volte più, a volte meno, la voglia di farcela, di volare.



[...]Credo che non sia tutto qui, però prima di credere in qualcos'altro bisogna fare i conti con quello che c'è qua, e allora mi sa che crederò prima o poi in qualche dio. Credo che se mai avrò una famiglia sarà dura tirare avanti con trecento mila al mese, però credo anche che se non leccherò culi come fa il mio caporeparto difficilmente cambieranno le cose. Credo che c'ho un buco grosso dentro, ma anche che, il rock n' roll, qualche amichetta, il calcio, qualche soddisfazione sul lavoro, le stronzate con gli amici ogni tanto questo buco me lo riempiono. Credo che la voglia di scappare da un paese con ventimila abitanti vuol dire che hai voglia di scappare da te stesso, e credo che da te non ci scappi neanche se sei Eddie Merckx. Credo che non è giusto giudicare la vita degli altri, perché comunque non puoi sapere proprio un cazzo della vita degli altri.
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#1   15 Maggio 2008 - 13:43
 
e le risposte migliori sono quelle che si trovano da soli. nessuno può scappare da sè stesso. a meno che non ci si trasformi in una specie di parassita di quelli che entrano ed escono da un corpo all'altro.uhuhu..
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#2   15 Maggio 2008 - 14:26
 
Finalmente. Ero davvero preoccupata e triste!
forza avanti.
teniamo botta.
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#3   15 Maggio 2008 - 14:39
 
*LaToby: una specie di parassita di te stessa? che cosa strana..sarebbe bello poterlo fare a volte però...


*Nez: forza e avanti... :)
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#4   16 Maggio 2008 - 08:54
 
dai su..và che non volevo mica deprimerti!! pota suuuuu!! (da leggersi alla bergamasca!) :D
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#6   16 Maggio 2008 - 19:53
 
*LaToby: parli bene tu..dall'alto del tuo fidanzamento in contumacia!!!! ahhahaha

*ziacassie: ti abbraccio forte forte...mi sono commossa.
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#7   17 Maggio 2008 - 09:10
 
Però magari Eddie Merckx alle Mauritius ci và.....

;P

qui ci vuole una vacanza....

eh si....

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#24   07 Luglio 2008 - 21:26
 
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#36   09 Luglio 2008 - 09:44
 
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